Monday, wonderful Monday. Surprisingly I was feeling refreshed today. I think it might have to do with the fact that it’s light when I wake up now. I kind of enjoy it. Although it’s weird that it starts to get dark when I’m getting off of work. Oh well. You’d think I’d be used to the time change after 28 yrs.

I started the morning off with some yummy oatmeal and some better n peanut butter. Very filling and just what I needed in my tummy.

The drive to work wasn’t as bad as usual, somewhat light traffic. It was so pretty too because it finally looked like fall with clouds in the sky. I hope this weather lasts, but I already read that it’s supposed to get back up to 80 this weekend. boo.

When I got to work I enjoyed a nice cup of coffee with some 2% milk.

I had some yogurt for a snack. It feels really good trying to be healthy again. All the guys around me are enjoying leftover halloween candy. It’s hard to resist, but I know it’s for the best.

I felt like getting out of the office for lunch, but I packed my lunch so I just needed somewhere to sit. I opted to drive to the back bay and enjoy the view as I nibbled on my salad. On the drive there I also had a little baggie of mini carrots.

My salad was good but really not enough to tide me over for the whole afternoon. Thankfully I have some TLC bars. So yummy.

Later in the afternoon I was tempted by the dreaded Halloween candy. I opted for something that would last awhile, and I knew wasn’t horribly fattening. I threw the 3 musketeers away. Wasn’t feeling it.

I needed a snack while I wait for my acorn squash to cook. So I had some lunch meat. I think I’m gonna make some chicken sausage to go with my squash. Sounds good.

I love squash. Squash of any sort. I also had a chicken sausage I purchase at TJs. Soooo good. I could eat this forever.

Off to the gym w/ my sis in an hour.

I completely spaced on taking pics today. Oops. Here’s what I ate:

For breakfast I had some oatmeal w/ my better n peanut butter and real peanut butter mix. I also had a diet coke

I watched football and did laundry for awhile and contemplated going to the gym. I had a small can of soup just to tide me over.

I actually did make it to the gym and had a good workout. It felt so nice, and like I could do this chubby challenge thing. I just need to keep it up.

After the gym I went to Trader Joe’s and Vons to pick up some healthy, yummy food. I probably go too much food. Hopefully I won’t waste any produce.

After I got home I made half a pita sandwich with roast beef, swiss cheese, tomatoes, and sprouts. I used this awesome mustard that I bought at the Sierra Nevada Brewing Company when I was in Chico. I also had a little bowl of mini carrots.

Right now I’m watching Celebrity Rehab and it’s making me feel a hell of a lot better about my life. These people are sooo messed, it’s sad.

Not sure what I’m going to do for dinner but I have so much food I’m sure I can figure it out.

Had one too many of these last night:

and ended the evening with a 3 musketeers (mini) and some more dinasour chicken nuggets. Ooops.

I got off to a late start this morning and kind of felt out of it and down. I’m not having a good week, my mood is just really weird right now. I wouldn’t say I’m depressed just a bit low and every little thing makes it worse. I knew a couple things that would snap me out of it:

My favorite cup of Joe:

And of course some Golden Spoon. I went with an unusual flavor, for me, today. Boysenberry and NY Cheescake w/ almonds. It was actually a filling and yummy breakfast.

I spent the rest of the day shopping w/ my sister, niece, and Dean. Hannah is a handful but how can you not love this face:

After shopping I had a piece of cheese, and half of a frozen burrito. Then my bro-in-law made us all Mai-tais. I got a bit tipsy off of one. Surprising.

I just got back from my sisters and am contemplating whether I should go out tonight. I kind of don’t want to because I don’t want to drink, and know that if I go out I’ll probably end up having a drink, which always leads to more.

Let you know what I decided tomorrow.

I started the morning in a somewhat foul mood. Dehydrated from the previous nights activities. I had nothing in the house to eat so I stopped by the gas station on my way to work and grabbed an Odwalla Bar and some ice tea. I love Odwalla bars, but this one didn’t really hit the spot today.

I also had my morning cup of Joe. Mmmm… I definitely needed it this morning to wake me up.

My stomach was rather growly this morning. Thankfully it was breakfast day at work. I had my usual fruit salad.

Around 10, I felt ravenous. Maybe because of the alcohol the night before, or because I was bored out of my mind at work. All I could think about was food. I had a TLC granola bar. I like these ones cause they have whole almonds. It’s like a special treat.

I went to lunch late today. I think the snacks help tide me over until almost 1. Of course, I had the same lunchtime dilemna I always do. What to eat? Boring ol’ me chose Subway. I swear I have a fear of eating anywhere else besides Subway. I must start packing my lunches.

I didn’t eat anything the rest of the afternoon because I was actually busy at work. It was kind of nice.

I went over to my sisters after work to see my niece and nephew in their costumes. Dean was super cute as Superman, and Hannah was cute as a mermaid, although she fought it the whole time. Typical Hannah. While there I enjoyed a couple of Halloween candies. I let myself, it’s Halloween afterall.

I wasn’t totally hungry when I got home from my sisters, but I thought it would be smart to eat something because I know I’m going to be away from home all night tonight, and I don’t want to be famished. The only thing I really have in the house are my dinasour chicken nuggets so I decided to warm up a few. It was enjoyable.

I’m off to a Halloween Party tonight. Hopefully I won’t be too bad.

Yay, I am so happy. I have been trying to find this song that I heard on an iphone ad. The ad doesn’t feature the vocal, so it was hard searching for it because I had nothing to go on, but I heard it on the radio yesterday. Frantically I wrote some lyrics on my hand, googled them this morning and tada…

Too much of this last night:

Too much beer

I also had a yummy tri-tip quesadilla at Lucille’s BBQ. I went there for a friends birthday. It was fun, but too many libations and too much quesadilla.

I’ll be back after work w/ my food for the day.

I never in a million, zillion years thought I would actually try to keep a blog. I hope that it won’t be like my many attempts, during my youth, at keeping a diary. I would get 3 entries deep and forget about it. Hopefully I’m older and wiser now, and will have the energy to keep this up.

What will you see here on my blog?

It is going to be somewhat of a weight loss struggle/food diary. I hope to take pics of everything I eat throughout the day, as well as write down any thoughts, stories, etc. My tendency is to keep my food intake private and I think that has given me an unhealthy outlook on food in general. It is no longer a joy to have a good meal, or a yummy dish, rather it is something that needs punishment when taken to extremes. I don’t believe that is healthy, and I want to change that.

Food is not the only neurosis I have and I will explore all the inner working of Anne on this blog. It is mainly for me to get the thoughts bouncing around in my brain out, but if someone appreciates it and gains solace in the knowledge that they are not alone in their worldly, and often overwhelming struggles.

The rational person that sometimes rears it’s head knows that a subject such as weight and appearance shouldn’t play such a large part in my life because there are so many more issues that are more pressing, more dire, more important on a global scale. Often though, that rational side doesn’t win. That being said, I believe that the issue of weight and self acceptance is of huge importance in the world because it effects so many. This is just my attempt to wrap my head around it, and put it behind me so that I can focus on those things that really should matter.

Cheers to more, and more, and more, and more posts.